A man said to the universe:
"Sir I exist!"
"However," replied the universe,
"The fact has not created in me
A sense of obligation."

Stephen Crane

Thursday, July 31, 2008

You shake your head, and said it's a shame . . .

Looking back over my posts I am struck by the fact that they are sporadic at best. Not that the teeming world of blog readers is waiting breathlessly for my next installment, but when I started this thing I had hoped to post something at least several times a week. The problem is that as soon as I sit down in the desk chair and face the computer my mind goes completely blank. If you were to hook me up to an EEG you would probably decide it was time to donate the organs.


Tuesday, July 15, 2008

He likes toast and jam . . .

Each semester during the first Japanese language class it is customary for each student to introduce themselves, and briefly tell why he or she is studying Japanese. Sometimes it is because a spouse or partner is Japanese. (As one man put it, "I want to know what my mother-in-law (義理のお母さん—giri no okaasan) is saying about me.") Sometimes it is because they are (二世—nisei) second or (三世—sansei) third generation Japanese-American, and they want to connect to that part of their heritage. And very often, especially with the younger students, it is because they are おたく (otaku—obsessive fans, usually of anime or manga). Whatever the primary reason is they very often finish the 自己紹介 (jikoshoukai—self-introduction) with, "and I love everything about Japan—especially sushi."


Monday, June 30, 2008

Signs, signs, everywhere a sign . . .


Sometimes Arizona is a very strange place.






Sink placement is always an adventure.


When I think of buying a new Lexus, I think giant sumo.



Monday, June 23, 2008

ティクンシー

私はアイダホーのヘイリーに生まれたのに、ミシガンのティクンシーが出身だと思います。ティクンシーはとても小さい田舎町一時間ぐらい車でテトロイトの西にあります。その町はほんの四千人が住んでいました。協会が五つあて、バーが四つあって、信号が三つあって、レストランが二つありました。しかし、ドライブインがありませんでした。高校生の時は、映画の後でハンバーガーを食べるために、となりの町のブッミーズ・ドライブインに行けなければなりません。

ティクンシーの南部にはザ・ピットという名の大きい池がありました。私は二年間の夏にそこで救助員していました。北部の町は川でした。町の近くにはたくさん湖と川でした。夏にカヌーをしたり、泳いだり、船で行ったりしました。そして、冬に自殺の丘にそりをしたりしました。

しかし、私の一番好きな季節は秋でした。大気はきれいで寒くてからっとしました。木の葉は赤と黄色とオレンジ色になりまた。男の子の時は、ハロウイーンに未亡人とほかのおばあさんはカップケーキやポップコーンバルズやブラウニーズを作りました。弟はポップコーンバーズが好きではありませんでした。そして、弟に私のハーシーバーズをあげて、弟からポップコーンバルズをくれました。

ティクンシーは小さかったですが、育つためにすばらしい所でした。メーベリーよりよかったですね。

ありがとうございました。

Sunday, May 18, 2008

To me he was . . .

I was talking to my mother on the phone tonight. After the usual questions about her current health and happiness she said:

I was thinking just the other day about all the things your father and I did in the 57 years we were together.
"You guys did have a busy life together." My father passed away in 2002 just three weeks before their 58th anniversary.

I was always so proud of him. No matter what, he made sure we paid our bills. Even the hospital bills for you and your brother.
The health insurance my dad got through his job was almost totally useless, and my parents paid almost all of our hospital bills themselves. "I know he worked hard, but what I remember most is that we always seemed to have fun."

He worked like a dog. But he never complained.
"No, he never did. And like I said, we always had fun."

Don't take money to have fun.
She was quiet for a couple seconds while we both remembered.
God, I miss him.
"Me too, Mom."



In a world that often treated my brother and me as something less than real men because we had hemophilia (and often didn't mind telling us quite bluntly), he never had anything but love and pride for us. When other fathers were abandoning their family or ignoring a son's existence because he was 'defective', my father was taking on another job so he could be sure we had the care we needed. When the world was telling my brother and me that we would never be anything but cripples and a drain on society, our father was teaching us how to work a short order grill, do rough carpentry, and run a bakery so we would always be able to make our own way.


In my last post I talked about how the gene for hemophilia can stay hidden for several generations. In our family it is just the opposite. My grandfather was a hemophiliac, two cousins, my brother and I, and now my grandson. I know my life has been infinitely easier than my grandfather's, and I am confident that my grandson's will be infinitely easier than mine. I just hope that he never has to hear some girl's father tell him not to come around anymore because Janice/Rosa/Sharon can't be wasting her time on a cripple; but if he does I hope he has someone like I did who will remind him that "your bleeds can be stopped, and you'll get better, but there isn't any cure for being a stupid jackass."


父ありてあけぼの見たし青田原
With my father/I would watch the dawn/Over the green fields.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Spammity spam. . .

Tonight I was looking through the 11 August 1945 issue of The New Yorker. I was reading that particular issue to see if they had made any comments relating to the bombing of Hiroshima. They did not, but in the 'Talk of the Town' section they did have an article about Jay Hormel. In it there was the following passage:
In his office at the Hormel plant in Austin, Minnesota, he keeps what he calls his Scurrilous File, in which he dumps the letters of abuse that are sent to him by soldiers everywhere in the world. "If they think Spam is terrible," Mr Hormel told us, "they ought to have eaten the bully beef we had in the last war. Maybe that's where the verb 'to beef' came from. Maybe the verb 'to spam' will come out of this war. Nothing would surprise me any more." He blinked his eyes. "The language people use!"
If he only knew.

二つ三つ星みいだすや啼く蛙
I can see/Two or three stars/Frogs are croaking.

Thursday, April 24, 2008

サンタいません

私の紙と髭は白いで、あなかは太っていますから、小さい子供で「サンタ」
と言います。私がサンタいません!名前はガイ•ボスです。ヘーリー•アイダホ
で住まれましたけれども、出身はミシガンだと思います。とても小さな町の
 ティークムセで成長しました。

大学の時にはたくさんアルバイトを含めて、共助員やトーリシト•ガイドや
フォーク•ミュージックの喫茶店のMCでした。大学の後ではペンキ屋や
大学の職員や作家でした。それから、教科書の経営者が二十三年間ありました。
今退職したです。

私の家はスコッツデルのオールド•タウンの近くにです。私たちの猫はそこに
住んでもいいです。何人かはそこか古くて小さいだと思います。しかし、私たち
はとても気持ちいがいいと思います。

私はたくさん趣味あります。文学を読んで、音楽を聞くが一番好きな二つです。
マルック•チワエン、ドゴラス•アダムザ、村上春樹などの作家は読みたい。音楽
はジャズとクラシックが特にすきです。私は本当にギターとドラムをするが
楽しんでいますから、あまり上手がありません。

どうぞよろしく。